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My song of the day: home with you - FKA twigs

home with you - This song's album — MAGDALENE — which I have covered before as an album of the week, is extremely emotional. This song does not disappoint. This song was written when twigs was in a lot of pain; emotionally and physically. She was still recovering from her relationship with movie star Robert Pattinson, who starred in Twilight, and she also had uterine tumors called fibroid tumors; both of which are indirectly mentioned in this song.

"Apples, cherries, pain

Breathe in, breathe out, pain

No, no, Novocaine

Still maintain my grace"

In these lyrics, which she described on the song's Genius page, she humorously refers to her fibroid tumors as fruits. She also describes how even breathing caused her pain. Even though she was in so much pain, she did not use pain killers to alleviate her pain. She says that she was "very cautious what [she] put in [her] body. [She didn't] want to put painkillers in." After her laparoscopic surgery, she was only on pain killers for a very short time. She was given some to take home to ease the pain, but she preferred to not take the medications. Even though she was in immense pain, she was still able to "maintain her grace". I also interpret the "Breathe in, breathe out, pain" lyric about being able to recover from pain quickly and keep up appearances so that no one else knows that you're struggling, as to not bother them.

"How come the more you have, the more that people want from you?

The more you burn away, the more the people earn from you

The more you pull away, the more that they depend on you"

In these lyrics, she describes how having a lot of anything can lead to the risk of more being taken away, compared to only having a small amount. "More money, more assets, more problems, [the] more you have to lose. It’s all in ratio."

I could honestly keep going on about the lyrics in this song, but this is already pretty long, and I'm very close to crying, so I'll leave this entry here. Below, I've provided some choice lyrics.

"I didn't know that you were lonely

If you'd have just told me, I'd be home with you"

This makes tears well in my eyes. I literally cannot. "Breathe in, breathe out, pain."

"I know I've been gone, you've been all alone

Stoking up the fire for you

Set the place alight, call me late at night

And I'll be running home to you"