Though I woke up late and got absolutely soaked from the hip down walking from my car to school, I feel happy. I don't know why, considering I got in a fight with my mom last night about going to a concert in chicago. I do have some good stuff going for me. I'm gonna start my summer job in 3 weeks at the best little childcare place in town. For the entirety of this school year, I've been an unpaid volunteer at this childcare center. Only grades 3-8 are there, and it's been such a fun time. I go there between once to thrice a week, and we do anything from planting in the garden, caring for the center's chickens and rabbits, or making indoor crafts.
On days like today, the kids would be inside the center. Also, the center itself is a repurposed church. It is a really nice place with tons of windows. The pews, alter, and anything else catholic church-like has been completely removed. It even has a basement, which is seldom used because there is so much space upstairs. The only thing the downstairs is used for is storage and food prep (which there is a lot of, considering the owner regularly gets ramen noodles for the kids to prepare every day after school). The owner of this childcare place is such a lovely person. On days where the kids are a little more low maintenance than usual, I can talk to her about anything: options for college, things concerning my parents, and anything else that can be talked about with kids nearby. ☻
Today, I am listening to Selected Ambient Works Volume II (Expanded Edition) by Aphex Twin to match the rainy day. It may be a little depressing, but that's okay ☻. Aphex Twin is one of my favorite artists of all time, so I consider this a treat.
Soooo... Sorry for being gone everybody. I had a club related field trip this weekend that I was so locked-in to (don't know if that's gramatically correct) and also I'm sick. About the club trip: it was super fun!!! It was a joint field trip between the art club and the culture club at my school (I am only in the art club) and you know I just had to go. I was honestly super scared about it because I only had one person who I am kindaaa friends with, and other than her, there was some people there I was scared to be around because I thought they hated me. Honestly, it didnt end up being a problem at all and I even sorta made up with one of these people (through a very unfortunate pairing in a latin dance lesson that I was completely dreading).
Other than that dance lesson (which truthfully wasn't that awful other than the previously mentioned event), the whole trip was super fun!!!! I loved being able to meet other people who I didn't already kinda know (which is a very common event living in a small town with >10,000 people). As cheesy as it sounds, I really liked being able to "leave my shell" (as they call it 'round these parts) and do things that are usually out of my comfort zone (also cheesy).
I met a really nice artist in Minneapolis during its "Second Saturday" event. His name is Joel Janetto (insta link here with his @ being @jjennetto), and he had some really cool art, with his main media being 2D art, in which he uses colored pencil, pen/ink, chalk, and paint. He also dabbles a bit in 3D clay sculpture. I find his somewhat-abstract style being something I'd like to reflect in my own visual art, though I rarely make visual art. Please comment in my guestbook if you'd like to see my visual art or my auditory art more. I have plans to implement both pages at some point but I need some help deciding (hint hint encouragement hint hint) which one to do first. I also plan on implementing a system where I can upload media, whether that be picture or video, to these blog posts. I have no idea how hard or how long that it's gonna take me, but I think I'll research it tomorrow. Thanks for reading (or skimming, no shame) this far.
By the way, I don't plan to update here on a certain schedule, because I just don't have a lot to say some days. Sorry for accidentally intermittent reinforcement-ing you guys... Much love, I'll see you all later ♥
I just walked face first into an ex-talking stage at school and I might just start crashing out... he never even wanted to talk to talk to me in person, just text. I think he was scared of how people would react if they know he was Bi. Also, just after, I saw him 2 more times in less than 5 minutes. Being a gay person really makes me feel homophobic ☻ (I'm joking of course, but still...). I just want a relationship with someone where they don't have to feel scared just being around me. Anyways... We had Solo/Ensemble Contest for band today and my ensemble and I did well!!! Unfortunately, all of my other classes are sooooooo boring so I've been doing this instead of paying attention. It isn't like we're doing anything strenuous anyways... Also, do you guys like the structure of my website? Please leave a message in my guestbook if you have a suggestion to make. ☻